Holding Back the Years

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"Ï've wasted all my tears
Wasted all those years
Nothing had the chance to be good
Nothing ever could...."

I wish I could just unLOVE you. After spending my lifetime loving you and waiting for the moment I can finally see you again... my heart was shattered into million pieces when I found you on the most expected place/site..fb... after years of searching. I can't believe I was staring at your photos... your family and how happy you are. Reality hit me. I was so stupid holding on to the memories. Now I'm so emotionally crippled, but I know I can finally move on. Thanks for the memories although the time we shared together was so brief, meant the world to me. I cannot even imagine myself befriending you and exposing my vulnerabilities. I just don't want to be going back to the past. You are just a memory to me now. I just wished that you were just decent enough and told me that it was over. Truth hurts, and I was living a lie, trying to convince myself that you were hurting too when you left. Now I'm letting go of my emotions... and letting the you go. but unLOVE you? Maybe never....