Holding Back the Years

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"Ï've wasted all my tears
Wasted all those years
Nothing had the chance to be good
Nothing ever could...."

I wish I could just unLOVE you. After spending my lifetime loving you and waiting for the moment I can finally see you again... my heart was shattered into million pieces when I found you on the most expected place/site..fb... after years of searching. I can't believe I was staring at your photos... your family and how happy you are. Reality hit me. I was so stupid holding on to the memories. Now I'm so emotionally crippled, but I know I can finally move on. Thanks for the memories although the time we shared together was so brief, meant the world to me. I cannot even imagine myself befriending you and exposing my vulnerabilities. I just don't want to be going back to the past. You are just a memory to me now. I just wished that you were just decent enough and told me that it was over. Truth hurts, and I was living a lie, trying to convince myself that you were hurting too when you left. Now I'm letting go of my emotions... and letting the you go. but unLOVE you? Maybe never....

Explore, Dream, Discover

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed in the things you didn't do than by the things you did.
So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbours and catch the trade winds in your sails.
Explore, Dream, Discover." - Mark Twain


OMG, what the hell I've done with my life - as if I've never lived my life at all. I am so very much f*cked up. I worried about everything and everyone else. And I forgot about me. I strived to be the best mother, partner, daughter, sister, friend or whatever to all the dearest people in my life - but to my disappointment - these dear people somewhat failed my expectations to some extent. They are so wrapped up with or in themselves, someone or something.


From now on, I'll live my life in a way that suits me, and wouldn't give a damn shit about what others would say and think. So if I'd be lucky enough to live for another twenty more years, it would be my turn to explore any more possibilities, dream even the impossible, push some boundaries and discover myself.

BIYAHE TAYO PHILIPPINES

A strange feeling of nostalgia.

Live Life

Count your blessings...

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast,
and you'll eventually lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt
because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."

"Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin."

-- Anonymous

HUMAN SHIELDS

By Chris Tinkler
Adelaide Now, 29 July 2006
http://www.news.com.au/adelaidenow/

How terrorists fighters HESBOLLAH have drawn helpless civilians into the carnage

Graphic images smuggled out from Lebanon show how Hezbollah is waging war amid suburban homes.

A stream of images, obtained exclusively by the News Ltd, depicts how the extremists are using high-density residential areas as launch pads for rockets and heavy calibre weapons.

Dressed in civilian clothing so they can quickly melt back into suburbia, the fighters carrying automatic assault rifles ride in on trucks laden with cannons.

The photographs from the Christian area of Wadi Chahrour in the east of Beirut were snapped by a visiting journalist caught in the midst of the war, then smuggled out by a friend.

IN SOUTHERN Lebanon, Israeli missiles and artillery rained down around towns and roads, targeting sites believed to be connected with Hezbollah but wreaking destruction in populated areas.

Images and footage of Hezbollah activities taken by local newspapers and TV crews are routinely seized by the group’s fighters at road blocks.

But in our images, taken clandestinely, a group of fighters are preparing to fire truck-mounted anti-aircraft gun just metres from an apartment block with sheets drying on the balcony.

Others show a Hezbollah fighter armed with nickel-plated AK47 rifle guarding no-go zones after Israeli blitzes.

Another depicts the remnants of a Hezbollah Katyusha rocket in the middle of residential block, blown up in an Israeli air attack.

The Melbourne man who smuggled the shots out of Beirut told yesterday how he was less than 400m from the block when it was obliterated.

``Hezbollah came in to launch their rockets, then within minutes the area was blasted by Israeli jets,'' he said.

``Until the Hezbollah fighters arrived, it had not been touched by the Israelis. Then it was totally devastated.

``After the attacks they didn't even allow the ambulances or the Lebanese Army to come in until they had cleaned the area, removing their rockets and hiding other evidence.

``Two innocent people died in that incident but it was so lucky it was not more.
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`The people there were horrified and disgusted at what Hezbollah were doing.''

The fighters used trucks, driven into residential areas, as launch pads for the rockets, he said.

A United Nations humanitarian chief Jan Egeland blasted Hezbollah as ``cowards'' for operating among Lebanese civilians.

Thousands of children, elderly and disabled had been stranded after more than two weeks of war, while supplies of food and medicine are dwindling, he said.

In addition, 20 Lebanese soldiers and at least 35 Hezbollah guerrillas have been killed.

Mr Egeland said when he was in Lebanon in the Hezbollah heartland he had said: “Hezbollah must stop this cowardly blending in among women and children'

``I heard they were making statements that they were proud of losing fewer armed men than civilians.

“It's hard to see how they could be proud of such a situation.''

WHAT THE????

Israeli girls write messages on a shell at a heavy artillery position near Kiryat Shmona, in northern Israel, next to the Lebanese border, Monday, July 17, 2006. Diplomatic efforts to end Israeli-Hezbollah fighting gained traction Monday, with Israeli officials saying the country would agree to halt fighting if its two captured soldiers were returned and Islamic guerrillas withdrew from the border. Publicly, the officials continued to insist their goal was to dismantle Hezbollah. But senior aides to Prime Minister Ehud Olmert office said he told his Italian counterpart, Romano Prodi, that Israel would accept cease-fire terms of Hezbollah releasing the Israeli soldiers and withdrawing from the border. (AP Photo/Sebastian Scheiner)

It's so obvious, they are sending their love to Hezbollah!!!!

Signs of TIME

"The Australian" Newspaper
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"The Courier Mail" Cartoon